How about some tough love Mark. Sounds like you want someone here to give you permission to start up again. Well, it isn't going to come from me, and I doubt the other 99.9% would be very happy about doing it either. So, you're under stress. So what! So are the rest of us for one reason or another and were when we quit. No excuse. Tough it out. You start up again now, you will then have learned how easy it was to find an excuse to "get your fix." Stay away from those guys who you can sponge off of. Think of them as your toxic enemy to be avoided at all costs. You really can do it, just get you brain under control and get through the urge. DO NOT SUCCUMB to TEMPTATION!
You'll do o.k. Mark, just a few of the first hurdles to get over.
Daisy