Maybe it's time to get out of the "box" completely (not just "think" outside the box, but actually get out of it.) There's nothing wrong with life changing career choices that are as closely related as the North Pole is to the Sahara Desert.
It's scarry and challenging to change one's focus in life, but when doors slam shut in your face, you have to look for windows to crawl through. If you do, you may find your "former" life was over-due an over-haul.
My teen years started out working at a Gas station, later a grocery store, then a grain elevator. I started college and had to return to work, so I worked at McDonalds, and that evolved to working in a hospital kitchen. When I graduated college, I was still seeking secondary employment at McDonalds and engage in the ministry. That lasted 5 years and a life change was necessary. Yep, I went into the Army, 6 years. It was a love-hate relationship. After that, for another 7 years it was the ministry and McDonalds again until I REALLY had enough of ... well ... that's another story ..... I evolved into Information Technology were I spent the next 30 years of my life until I retired. And after I retired, I landed a gig as a volunteer (camp host) in the Louisiana State Park system for a free campsite and now I spend most of my year there.
Every turn of my life was traumatic and scarry. But when things closed in, shut down, and went dark, new things opened up that eventually led to something more rewarding, more challenging, and more fun than before.
You can do the same. Look for the opportunities that surround you right now. Again, you'll have to get out of your self-imposed "box" and look at the world around you with new, fresh eyes.
It's quite obvious, "teaching" is not your "thing." So, don't do it any more, and don't feel guilty about it. Look for something else that does float your boat? Maybe an art museum?
You are spot on.
I had decided to leave teaching in 2023 and did. It was actually my wife at the time who suggested it.
Once I did, and went to the SBA, etc. to get back into the murals etc. my wife then sabotaged everything (long story) and everything was ruined. It was the last straw.
I had to return to teaching, but now instead of a 2 mile drive each way, it was 50 miles each way. And it was a really bad work environment.
I filed for divorce and got the house. Payed all my debts and got in a little more debt to get some things I needed for that business.
My ex then went to the court and they took back the house, and came after me. Every attorney I talked to said this was unfathomable, because it was beyond the limit of doing this by more than 30 days, but the judges do whatever they want.
I had to get an attorney and everything got ruined again-my credit, debt-etc.
That's the only reason I came back one more time, moving over 2,000 miles to this new job.
This will be my last year. I will find some other way.
I can't keep doing this, as it is sucking me dry of every ounce of creativity.
If I have to declare bankruptcy, so be it.
Looking for online work.
Part of the issue is that to do the murals and props, I need to be able to travel if need be, and also be able to stay in a different area for a week or two at a time, especially for murals.
Teaching make this impossible, unless I can fins an online gig. I am working on that.
To do other work, like leatherwork, props, etc. I need a place to store my tools, to work... and the Casita does not work.
Bad decision made in a time when I was under massive stress, desperate to escape abuse, and not thinking straight.
I am also debating whether to stick it through until the end of the school year even if an opportunity arises.
They have been very nice people, but in the end, when a job thinks you're no longer a "fit" they will tell you to move on-nice people or not.
Still bothers me though. I don't like the idea of doing that.
I guess, if I have to, I can make sure I leave really good and detailed lesson plans that a long term sub can use so the kids get good lessons.
It's a shame. I would still teach high school if things were different, but teachers are no longer really teachers... we are much more like babysitters with pretty much no real authority.
Trying to teach six groups of 20-30+ people per day who actively display apathy and no interest, wears on you.