Thanks i do take medication for some of it but seeing a professional is not an option. I can barely pay my 20% as it is for normal Dr's visits. So that is not an option at this time. Plus i dont think i am strong enough to handle dealing with all that baggage. You know how it is, its not just dealing with one thing, once you prick the baloon then it all comes out and now you have to deal with 50+ years of stuff. Im not strong enough for that right now. I have not even dealt with my sisters death yet and she died 7 years ago. I have to think "if it works dont fix it" that is how i survive. And being a social butterfly is not that important to me compared to dealing with all the rest of the stuff.
One of the big challenges is that the meds for anxiety does not take effect for 30 min and by then the attack is over.